mykgerard

It's been quite awhile since I've posted. I just wanted to say that I believe I've found my biological father. I've written on the subject a lot on Livejournal so even though I haven't consistently used it for awhile I felt that it was necessary to post this here.


Things have been very crazy over the past few days. This is an email from someone I’m about 95% sure is my genetic father:

Hi Michael,
I’m still dazzled by all of this and trying to make since of times and places, but it seems I knew your Mother, even tho memories are vague. if you want to get a DNA test send me your address and I’ll send you a lock of my hair. I am enclosing a sheet from a company someone I know used to determine paternity(cost about $150 they said). My wife said to tell you if I heard from you that she is no longer upset (especially since the time frame was before she and I were dating), her reaction was probably partially due to the fact that a lot of things are going on and things are rough for us at this time, since I am laid off and I have two houses(one a cottage up North) and consequentially a lot of bills we’re struggling with, and we just had a break-in up North, and a lot of valuables were stolen, so don’t take it personally.
sincerely,
(Name Removed for privacy purposes)

Here is my response to him

Hi,
Thank you. It is bizarre. It was difficult growing up without knowing anything about my background. I’ve had various father-like figures throughout my life, but no sense of where I was from. My brother Joseph and Sister Melissa (genetically half but legally full since their father adopted me) both died prematurely of Cystic Fibrosis and my childhood was anything but easy with that sort of struggle and heartache so you can imagine that should a test prove that you are my biological father it would be a desire of mine to meet you and your grown children. However, I have deep set of values that govern my actions, and while friendship and family and anything like that are possibilities I do not wish to disrupt anyone’s life if that would be the case. I just want you to know for sure that my heart is in the right place and ultimately I’m not after anything but knowledge and peace of mind for myself and my daughter who will turn two next month. Most importantly: I’m not looking for money or anything crazy like that. I promise to you with every ounce of my being that if a genetic test proves you to be my biological father I will never ask for one cent, nor am I entitled to anything.

I went to the genetree website. I don’t see any order forms or anything (their website great looking but poorly set up as far as usability {I can’t help to say things like this my wife is a graphic/web designer}) they do have some contact info so I suppose I can call them next week during business hours and/or possibly research alternatives

I want you to know I really appreciate the tone you have been taking and your cooperation. I’ve been prepared for this possibility for years, obviously this is something that like I said in our first phone conversation I knew might hit you like a ton of bricks. So thank you for being so gracious.

Warmest regards,

Michael Gerard

I have now lived in Houston Texas for 2.5 years. I'm finishing up my second year as a High School art teacher in Houston. I also teach yearbook and coach the school's Boys and girls Swim Teams.

I've been married for almost 4 years. I trust my wife more than any other person on the earth.

I have a one year old daughter named Navab. She walks.. she says a half dozen words.. she looks a lot like me.

I dunno... maybe I'm crazy but safari on the pc seems a bit faster than firefox.... I wonder how this is so.

I do not like the concept of limiting myself as far as the human experience goes. I wish to experience the most out of what this world has to offer.

Yet I find that I must rotate my concentrations to allow a variety of life experience in order to appreciate many things I am unable to experience all that I wish to at once.

1. My wife and Child who are away in Nashville right now.
2. Parkour
3. French Hip-Hop (damn Parkour videos)
4. Triathlon in 3 weeks
5. Summer!

I just read this quote from Shoghi Effendi, and it really struck me. I do not recall reading it before. It kind of blew me away though.

“The more we search for ourselves, the less likely we are to find ourselves; and the more we search for God, and to serve our fellow men, the more profoundly will we become acquainted with ourselves, and the more inwardly assured. This is one of the great spiritual laws of life.”


I think essentially it can be construed with a couple passages in Baha'u'llah's Hidden words that I will mention probably in response to this post if no one else beats me to it.

I was pleasantly surprised by the info that there was a new NIN album that secretly came out today. I am downloading it from Amazon right now.... I usually hate surprises... but sometimes they are good.

http://www.nin.com/

;)

I wonder how Lost fans are going to take it's decidedly SCIFI direction. It has always supposed to be a SCIFI show but that fact was cleverly hidden by good writing.

The time ray is an interesting concept.. The unlocking of consciousness from a specific point in time so that it can travel.... I've thought of this sort of thing before, sometimes I wonder if our synapses can connect through time with themselves in some way... Perhaps Deja Vu is related to this.

I don't want to sound crazy or involved in magical thinking but at various times I've seen flashes... quick images.. and had them come into my sight later.. sometimes days sometimes months sometimes years. Its usually just a visual sometimes its like a movie, but it's never held any importance or significance... It's somewhat different from what is described from Deja Vu in that I can often remember exactly when I saw the image, sometimes they come in dreams.

The other day I woke up to my wife shrieking in agonizing pain. When you have a pregnant wife that is really disturbing. She had a powerful leg cramp in her calf.

In my life I've been subject to probably 3 times as many cramps as anybody else I know, and because of this I knew what to do.

I knew being pregnant she couldn't hop out of the bed and stretch...

"Give me your leg"

She gave me her leg and I stretched it by applying pressure and moving it in the correct way.

Her cramp went away immediately..

I tell you, this one thing made me feel really good... Being there to be able to alleviate her suffering like that... It made me feel like it was worth all the hundreds of times I've woken up in the middle of the night with a very painful cramp.

Does anybody remember the site sixdegrees.com?

I think it was too ahead of it's time...

It could have been myspace had it come out a few years later. Sometimes the internet is all about timing.